urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_failures_art my_failures_art my_failures_art 2006-06-04T06:51:50Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_failures_art:2175 2006-06-04T06:51:50Z 2006-06-04T06:51:50Z my name is danny. i want to write this. to kinda put a final chapter up of what my life was. <br />I'm not gonna cop out with any song lyrics.<br />I use to live and breath for you, my mind fucked up as usual and i got caught up in some things i never wanted to even think of, I still loved you. and everyone knew it, even if i told them i didnt, they knew.<br />it took so long. but i figured out what i wanted. and even tho it took me long, you still wanted it.<br />but you hide anything thats real. at least i think you do.<br />if your reading this, its after our phone convorsation.<br />I dont think theres much for me to say for you, you are what you hate.<br />I wish i could say i love you, to me, you are not honest. <br />you come to me about 3 weeks ago with some shit about how you wanted things to change,<br />and then simply change your mind a week later.<br /><br />Im sorry to people who wont understand this. <br />I dont feel much of anything. i wish i could be some amazing guy that everybody wanted to be around, but im not. not even close. <br /><br />up until tonight. i lived for you.<br /><br />now i live for my little brother, my sister, Jimmy and my mom and dad.<br />i guess you got to good for me, and for my love.<br />because u block me out now, unless you need me. <br />and you use me for the times u do need me.<br />because im the only person who can calm you down, when youre nervous and scared.<br />and im the only person who really knows you in this life.<br />I think i taught you a lot, but now youve shown me, that you really didnt learn any of the good qualitys i tryed to show.<br />only the bad.<br />which they're are many.<br />even I, dont desearve this from you.<br /><br />if youre reading this, i'm already gone.<br />i hope everything you did was worth it.<br />goodbye.